Hello World!
I guess you could say that I am saving the best for last. I want to talk about my relationship with God. My relationship with God started at an early age, I dedicated my life to Christ at the age of ten-years-old. However, this doesn't mean I haven't had my ups and downs with my faith. I have questioned if God is real, or if He hears my prayers, or if He cares. There are times where I have run from Him, afraid of what He has in store for me.
I am stubborn and bull-headed as my family likes to say. I don't listen until I am ready to hear. I don't move unless I am ready to move, I don't feel unless I am ready to feel. Despite all of that, God still loves me. He cares, and that love can be scary and overwhelming. When I look back over the year and I see all He has done for me I can't stop myself from loving Him. Feel gratitude for what He has done, and how He has done only something He could do.
My favorite scripture in the whole entire world is Jeremiah 29:11. It reads "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future". This is something I keep close to my heart in times of doubt and fear. I know that my heart knows that He is real, and loves me. But I don't know if my brain does. I can have my head in the cloud type of person but I can also be over realistic. I know that He has plans for me. He doesn't plan to harm me, He wants to help me grow, He has a hopeful future in store for me. And the most important thing is that I have a future. In times when I can be deep in my depression, and I feel like there isn't any hope and I hold this scripture near and dear to my heart. It lets me know that even though things seem dark, scary, and lonely, I know that there is a light out there for me. That is what motivates me, encourages me, motivates me, and gets my butt out of bed.
God has never let me down, He is always there to catch me. I can hear him n whispering in my ear but out of fear for his plans and my future, I ignore Him. It is then that I have to learn the lesson the hard way and God needs to remove certain things from my life in order for me to focus on what He has for me. I am a person who is scared of the unknown, I like to micromanage because I don't like being surprised anything that I can't control. I am learning to this day to let go and let God. It is easier said than done. I feel like some people give advice and don't give a heads up, that "Hey this might be hard" or "Hey this is going to be tough". But here I am vulnerable and here to say to those who are reading this that faith can be scary, but we need to. I know I can't do it on my own, and I need to give it all to Him. And I am going to work on my trust. I think I will update you all on how my journey is going every now and again.
Another day as an adult (who loves God),
Tasha
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To God be the glory