Self-Doubt

Hello World!

For those of you who don't know, I am a full-time nursing student. What does this mean? It means that for the next two years I will eat, sleep, and breathe nursing. There is one issue that keeps coming up. It's doubt. Ironically my favorite scripture in Jeremiah 29:11, which says that God knows that plans that He has for you and they are plans that shall not hinder you but plans to help prosper you. I know this! Heck, it's even tattooed on my shoulder. The issue is I don't know if I am meant to do this. I feel that healing and helping others is my calling but I don't know if this is something that is fabricated. Something I made up in my mind? Something I am doing to please others, to appease others, and to make my family proud. Am I trying to carry on my father's legacy by being in the medical field, or am I meant to do this but am finding excuses to stop? Am I on the road to self-destruction? Am I purposely setting myself up for failure so I have a reason to quit? Is it worth it? Is to worth the stress and the tears? The sleepless nights? The doubts, the fears? Is it worth it? I don't know but I am glad that you're sticking with me and that you've stuck by my side. Sorry this is short! Guess what? Your girl has to study!

Another day as an adult (who doubts herself).......damn,

Tasha